Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Seek His Face

As I was reading my Bible this evening one particular verse spoke to me. It is found in 1 Chronicles 16:11, it says;

"Seek the Lord and His strength; Seek His face continually."

This verse is exactly what He has been speaking to my heart for sometime. I need so much more strength than I have. The only place to find it is seeking after the Lord.


Thanks Steph

Thank you Steph for the new blog design. I really like it!!!


Friday, April 25, 2008

Long Days

Jason is gone for a couple of days. It is amazing to me how different things are with out him. I have tried to keep our same routine this time. I takes so much more discipline for me to cook at regular times and go to bed at a decent time when he isn't here. I really had to force myself yesterday and today to be responsible and cook. I didn't realize how much I depend on Jason. I knew that he was a huge support in discipline with the kids but I didn't realize how much I relied on him for routine, someone to be accountable to, and his companionship.

After all the kids went to bed last night I found myself aimlessly flipping channels on the t.v. This would have driven Jason crazy. I was watching at least 6 different programs when I realized I should spend some quiet time with the Lord. This time without Jason has been very reflective for me. He goes on several business trips a year but this time I feel as though I have been shown a mirror.

In this mirror I have seen great weakness. I have leaned so heavily on my husband it is a wonder he hasn't been broken under the pressure. I have been sensing for some time that I have been out of balance in this area. Now that he is away it forces me to have to look at my dependency on him straight in the face. I know I can go to God with issues and problems but I have found it so much easier to go to my husband.

I miss my husband and look forward to him returning tomorrow evening. However, I pray that God will continue this work that He started in my heart to rely on Him and not depend on Jason.
Talk to you soon.

Thursday, April 24, 2008

Eagles Over Head

You may not believe this but this afternoon when we came home from picking up a rental car for Jason's business trip we had 3 bald eagles in our neighbors tree. It was so amazing. There was one adult and two juveniles. All the neighborhood crows were dive bombing it, it was quite a sight. Then I thought of you and thought I should try to take a picture of this. Yep, you guessed it. In the time it took me to go in, get my camera, and change the batteries they had left. I still thought you may like to know that Cascade Park can be a great place for bird watching.

Monday, April 21, 2008

Where is my hope?

This is the first entry into my new blog. I am excited to let you know about the quirks of my life, the things I experience, and the steps that I take in my walk with my Lord Jesus Christ.

My husband Jason and I just put an offer in on a house today. This will be the first house for us. We have been married 11 years and have 4 beautiful kids. Having a home feels like a long time coming but I know that I would have never appreciated it as much as we do now with out all the steps that have lead up to now.

Jason and I spent most of our first year of marriage living on a cargo ship. Then we have gone from living with family, to tiny apartments, to military housing, and recently we lived a year and half in a 28 foot travel trailer. So having a home has become a dream that we have honestly wondered if we would experience on this earth.

We are trying to buy a home that is going through the process of foreclosure so we have been told it could take up to 30 days for the bank that owns the home to tell us if they will accept, counter, or reject our offer. So we need to remind ourselves that if this the house God wants us to have He will provide it.

So now we wait. Last week we put an offer on a different house that fell through. But during that process of waiting for the reply our daughter would say, "I hope we get the house". This was a thought I was thinking myself because I loved how spacious and new it was. However, when I heard her say, "I hope we get the house", I heard something I couldn't hear in myself. I heard her hoping in the house and not hoping in the Lord. So we talked about how we must always put our hope in Jesus not in things. It was very disappointing when that house fell through but we are learning that houses aren't worth our hope but He is. So now as we wait for possibly 30 days for this reply and we must, I must continue to remember to my HOPE in the Lord.

Thank you for reading my first blog. Talk to you soon.